TOP SECRET

I have a secret. I share this secret with one other person. Okay two other people. But that's it.


One other person and I are working on a "SPECIAL PROJECT".

I work with this person.

We will call her "Mary Ann"

I respect Mary Ann very much. She's a bit older than me. She's witty, she's smart, she's HILARIOUS, she's been around the world... (At least compared to me), Mary Ann speaks 4 languages that I know of, (fluently), and She's many other wonderful things.

Mary Ann asked me about a couple of months ago if I would like do do a special project with her.

It has to do with writing.

I said yes.

I am excited about this project.

Day after we had our first "meeting" regarding our project, she asked if I had told anyone else about it. I admitted, that yes, one other person.. and of course, mentioned something to my husband as he was calling me nonstop through the meeting and I didn't want him to freak out as he tends to do when he can't "locate" me. But I also said that my husband wasn't really interested in what it was as it wasn't about HIM and the fact that it wasn't something he doesn't want me doing... like having sex with other men. However, other women are negotiable.

Mary Ann asked that I don't tell anyone else the details about the project until we have completed it.

I agreed to her request.

So today... a week after our first meeting, we got together for lunch in work cafeteria to discuss the project. (Usually she has lunch with two of her other friends from our team.. although Mary Ann and I take break in the morning together and go get our coffee and tea, sometimes our breakfast... I didn't realize ~nor thought I would need to think~ this lunch would look out of "the norm")

As soon as I got back to my desk, I had an email: (Yes, I changed names here too...and if you knew what the names were before, you would be LAUGHING your ass off, I ASSURE you)

"Hey, so is Mary Ann upset with Merry or Zelda? That’s unusual that she didn't have lunch with them. Or maybe she hasn't been and I just didn't notice."

I, like The Grinch, thought up a lie, and I thought it up quick.

I said I was helping Mary Ann to plan a party.

It's something I'm fairly good at, so it was believable.

After I forwarded the email to Mary Ann so we'd be on the same page, I started thinking, (and would tell her soon after), that we ought to tell everyone a different reason each time we met.

But what we'll probably end up doing is meeting on weekends, away from work.

My thoughts here are that it's funny to me, that someone... no a few people would notice that we met for lunch.. that this was something to cause a buzz. It was funny to me that anyone would care. It's also funny that a group of grown women would be hurt if we were to be honest. That we can't tell them about our project... yet... and that we were keeping it a secret. Although maybe we would trust them.. (although I find it hard to trust most anyone lately...) we may not trust the people that THEY trust.... this makes perfect sense to ME.

I could tell you, oh trustworthy one, and you would tell your husband.. or trusted friend.. who tells someone else.. and that person STEALS our project idea.

And to think, all this time.. one year and four months, I thought that although I like my co workers, I never felt that I really "fit in" with them. All the while, it's maybe just that they have the "lunch pals" of theirs already set.

I did have lunch with Mary Ann, Merry and Zelda before.. but it was a chance thing and Mary Ann asked if I would like to join them... I couldn't say "No." so I didn't.

I will most likely blog what I can about the secret project, but I won't likely do that too often...

I like having a secret.

I can't help it.

Don't tell anyone.